She liked
what she saw…
My best friend gave me an inspirational book for my 40th
birthday that I feel so honored to have been given. I read the words and look at the pictures and
to think that she thought of me means the world.
“One day, she stepped back and took a look at
her life.
A long, close look. As though it were a city she loved and she was flying high above it, so high that she could see the whole thing.
A long, close look. As though it were a city she loved and she was flying high above it, so high that she could see the whole thing.
And she realized something:
She LIKED WHAT SHE SAW.
SHE LIKED WHERE SHE HAD BEEN.
SHE LIKED WHERE SHE WAS GOING.”
Wow. That is just the
first two pages. How powerful.
AND YES.
How I treasure that I can say these words.
I like what I see.
These words are not easy for me to say. I have a history of some low self
confidence. Maybe it is that I am now
beginning my 40th year of
life….. not that I think I am old and wise… but… I might just be growing into
myself. (To some levels, haha.. still
lots of work to do!) But I like what I
see internally. I like my passion, my
meaning, my drive, my loves. I see the
messiness and I still like itJ
I like where I’ve
been. Even if I haven’t always liked it when I’m in
it. Life’s never easy. That is not the point and not what I seek. I can accept that, with the knowledge that I
have always done my best and lived according to my values. I wouldn’t change most things that I have
experienced- they have created my current reality. I like that I’ve given my all in so many
situations, beginning from my earliest years.
Many of my goals haven’t been realized, dreams haven’t come to fruition,
but damn damn damn, I’ve tried. I’ve
learned so much, seen so much, been devastated by so much, surprised by so much and thrilled to the ends
of my being. I’ve been beaten down, but
lifted back up. I’ve been discouraged,
but muddled through…. Miserably at times… step by step…. Both literally and
figuratively…..
I am still me,
through these places I’ve been.
I’ve grown in spurts
it seems…. Sometimes as much in one day as one whole year. I am a changed me, smarter me, more broken
me, more strengthened and humbled me. I
have answered to my heart, making decisions that answer the call I have heard
from my God. I wouldn’t change things
that have hurt me, and am full of unending gratitude for so much that has been
a dream come true.
I like where I’m
going. At this time, I like
that I feel hope and a future. I do get
in funks where I doubt this, but right now, at a deep level, I know I will
continue with all of the above- living in my world… in competition with no
one…. Answering my calling…. Loving my children and husband….. always working
to be aware and intentional…. Being humble enough to tweak things I do when I
see that they are not working….. reacting with thought and in line always with
my beliefs, trusting my character with the resilience that I have found
within…. With the fact that I am now okay.
I think I survived. Changed, but
still me…
**Text and pictures from page 2, “Today, Tomorrow &
Everyday.” M.H. Clark
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