Last fall, I began something that has been really nurturing
to my soul. I had been kind of “losing”
myself it felt—a confusion of- “why am I so tired, where is my typical
motivation, who am I, I’m bored” and so on.
Days felt more like drudgery. Every morning to wake up was just ughhhhhh….
But….. take me to the beach and I wake up like a firecracker! I’m not tired there, I have my typical light
and my fire and my heart just exudes what feels more natural to me as peace and
joy. I am so thankful and grateful. I couldn’t figure out why I kept acting so
negatively in my “real life.” It felt
like a moment too simplistic to end up making a difference, but I decided to
each day wake up and remind myself “what I am so lucky to get to do today,” and
then at night also- look forward to the next day to remind myself what I am so
lucky to do the following day. I was
hoping to make this more of the fabric of my brain, how I think naturally and
instead of being overwhelmed by schedules, driving, planning, remind myself how
THOSE VERY THINGS WERE THE THINGS THAT I WAS PSYCHED FOR!
It has made a world of a difference! And in fact, it was all super ridiculously
straightforward because it isn’t that I had to plan something different in my
day, it was more a reminder that I LOVE my days. Even if they are busy, they are filled really
with things I LOVE!
All it took was reminding myself how:
*I was so lucky to get to train people that I love working
with
*I am so lucky to do the work I love, believe in, and SEE
makes a difference in people’s lives!
*I am so lucky to have dogs to cuddle with, walk, pick up their
poop even, haha… I am just so lucky for these angels that I do truly thank God for
them every single day.
*I am so lucky to have a family that I need to feed, keep
snacks for, get to places, that we get to spend time together getting to those
places, the small conversations are what life is made up of, and even these
little moments aren’t really moments of stress, but really FULL LIFE MOMENTS
that are my privilege!
*I am so lucky to be able to go for a run… I never “have to
run”--- I should always say to myself, I GET TO RUN today! What a freedom in so many ways. Instead of letting my weekly workout mileage,
or numbers/sets/paces for a workout overwhelm, scare and turn my feelings to
uptightness and fear, let go of that and just remember the essence of what it
comes down to! I LOVE RUNNING (biking and swimming and everything else active I
choose to do!)
*just because I love so many things and try to fit it all
in- doesn’t make it stressful! I have
tons of hobbies and things I love! I often confuse that with a weird sense of unease
that I won’t be able to get my whole plan for the day accomplished.
*and overall, I’m so lucky to have pockets of minutes that I
can use for self care, seeing friends, being silent and still, full of presence
in order to recharge. That is not
laziness, there is nothing wrong with me, I am LUCKY to allow myself to pause
now and then to regroup and recharge so I can live from a place of being
centered and strong.
So, I ask to any of you reading this....What are you so lucky to "get to do" today?!
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